Jubilancy

Happiness flows as blood in my veins
I am hidden from any insignificant pain.
Nothing can matter
until my smile is long shattered.
hidden away
lost until another jubilant day.

Happiness washes away my hurt
I'm nothing but a smiling a lovable flirt.
Stupid smiles masking my pleasure
a jubilancy I could never measure.

Smiles tear across my face
a land to which frowns dare not grace.
Insecurities and tears long lost
as a lake stolen by an accidental frost.
But will my happiness ever melt
my frowns awaiting for hurt to be felt?
A hammer raised to my stupidity in smile,
should it matter, not for a while.

I`ll bask in the smiles the love and the joy
until depression crawls back, unhidden but coy.
For what will I do without what I hold
will I sit alone telling stories untold.
Of a land thats true, unhidden and clean
where you`ll find what will never exist but hopes to be seen